When I was a small child I would always admire my mother’s beauty. I would gaze at her beauty with awe and hopes that one day I can be that beautiful. But, I intuitively knew that her outer beauty did not match how she felt on the inside.
I wondered what beauty really was. My mother struggled with her inner battles and self esteem. Her struggle would influence me growing up. Is that why I felt like an ugly duckling? I didn’t know who to turn to for an example of a powerful role model.
Below: Sister Susan (right) Our mother Vivian, and me (left)
How could my mother teach me self love if she never practiced that herself? This has been my greatest challenge and biggest blessing.
I have taken many wrong turns, but I learned that beauty is an internal devotion to self. It is being “selfish” and taking time to honor my deepest desires and to take time to spend with myself. It is balancing my family life, work life, and my private life so I can truly be happy and whole.
It was the willingness to unveil false layers so my authentic beauty so it could rise up to the surface. Beauty was learning to let go and love my mother in all of her imperfect perfections. In that, I allow to love myself without judgments.
Self image was also important and was a reflection of my inner dialogue; it was a catalyst to my self-esteem. It works in harmony as a creative force for who I am. Taking care of my outer body temple is an honor. And, I am grateful to help others in co-creating an image that makes them feel ALIVE.
In the darkest moments, I discovered all the tools I needed to help me in the revelation of my authentic self. These tools I use now to coach others who are in the journey of self-discovery.
I became coach that I am today by reconnecting to my self worth and beauty during my darkest times as that ugly ducking. I thank my mother for being that reflection of where I needed to learn and grow in my own way. I now help my clients as an Art of Beauty coach and image consultant by guiding them to live in beauty; Inside and out.
Beauty is and always will be who I am. Beauty is and always will be who you are too!
We do not need to find beauty.
All we have to do is remember we are beauty!
The 40 Day Green Cleanse was a devotion dedicated to self. I waited until I was done breastfeeding and I couldn’t wait to give myself the gift of cleansing and self care. Especially when I saw the ugly duckling coming back in from months and months of sleep deprivation that led to lack of self esteem and some other issues. I needed to stand in my radiance and breathe in my power again. My brain fog lifted and energy came back. My hormones felt balanced once more. I felt alive again!
As a result of my inner and outer work, I finally feel I have landed back into my radiant body again 19 pounds lighter in 40 days!
Now, I can give more of my beauty to my son, my family and my clients and the world!
Self love is beautiful and priceless and can influence your children for a lifetime. I am honored to be guiding 2 groups May 21st and June 3rd on The 40 Day Green Cleanse.
Would you like to join us?
* I started The 40 Day Green Cleanse almost 11 months after I gave birth and was finished nursing.